Lost this Material somehow

One Side Of I Do




I was already 30 years old, had a son who was 13 years old, from when I was still in high school. I had been in recovery from a auto accident that had happened 9 years previous, which was caused because of drinking and driving while STUPID. To top this all off I was a recovering DRUG ADDICT. Besides being a freelance pot smoker and occasional drinker, I had also liked to use the occasional harder stuff. I have since discovered that I was not always, nearly never, very content with who I was. Therefore I used substances, people and situations to bolster my self-esteem and to gain courage. Needless to say I was carrying baggage.



Now Comes The Marriage







I was in love, and I wanted security, I was secure (so I thought) in myself, as long as I was loved by someone else. Marriage was my way of securing my insecurity. This was unknown at the time, but today as I am facing DIVORCE, I am aware of so much more than ever before. I thought that being married was the answer to prayers, and for the most part, my marriage was heavenly. My Wife was more than I could have ever dreamed of, she was my helpmeet (helper) as is spoken in Gods Holy Word.